Crazy lil thing called like

wow, turns out i've posted a couple of things 2 years ago :s
that's a loooooooooong time, i forgot all about it, hahaha.
hey its 12:12 AM here (that's soo random)

anyways! today is Saturday (well not really, technically today is Sunday), and i didnt go anywhere! i'm stuck at home and i'm sooo bored. some of my friends went out, i wanted to come, but...oh well. So i did some school tasks instead, hehe. bla bla bla thats not important.

and this is what i got from staying at home with nothing to do for too long: i start to think. real hard.
See, i have this guy i'm close to, we talk alot, almost everyday even. but this past couple of days, we rarely talk, and..i dunno, i guess i have a story to tell him (a pointless one) but still a story! and i've tried my best to wait for him but he never showed :( and i...well, i guess i kinda miss him, y'know? But i wonder..is it okay if i feel like this, coz he's just a friend..and i hate this feeling i'm having, its called having a crush, cip because everytime i have this feeling i change. drastically, and i dont like that..at all :(

the tighter you hold on, the higher you'll get. and once you fall, it'll hurt much more.

Yep, that's my philosophy about liking someone. because when i like someone, i tend to hold on to them, as in, sorta became dependent of them. and if i fall, or in this case i cant hold on to them anymore, i fell so hard and it hurts so bad, so bad that i dont want to experience it again, but i did anyway. And it happened again, and again and again.
so now i figure, why dont i think of them as a friend, that way, even if i cant hold on to them anymore, it wouldn't hurt that bad, because i was never dependent to them in the first place, rite?

wrong.

turns out, its not that easy. but my friend said that i just have to go with the flow, dont fight the feeling and it'll cease. She also said alot of other nice and meaningful, and true things, and she also said this:

...besides, you have us :) you have all of us, cip, your best friends. If anything happens to you we'll be there to help you :)

and that, my friends, is the most important thing. Because when your significant one cant bring you laughter anymore, when they stopped loving you the way they did before, and they wont listen to a word you're saying, you'll still have your best friends who'll bring that joy and laughter back, will love you for the way you are, and listen to you until your voice ran out.

I love you, my dear friends ♥